Balance

As I write this post, I am heavily procrastinating studying for a test. So I find it oddly ironic that I'm preaching balance, when really, I hardly have any in my life. I feel like I go from one extreme to the next, causing tidal waves whichever I way I go.

I started work last week. It was hard for me to adjust to the schedule of working full time two days a week and part time for one, and on those days have to come home and workout. It's so much easier to just grab a to-go meal and lay in bed.


.....but we all know what the result of that was. I gained two pounds last week!

This week, I'd like to see the number 245 on the scale. I've been reaching for that number, standing on my tippy-toes but not quiteeeee making it.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day, but I am determined to not let it get to me and to have everything under control.

Some things I've learned from working in an office 20 hours a week:

1. Constantly sitting is really boring, and surprisingly tiring.
2. It's important to have healthy snacks with you at all times or you WILL succumb to your neighboring vending machine. 
3. It's not weird to bring lemons and some knives to work to help spice up your water. 
4. It's so much easier to put on your workout clothes at work and just exercise at the staff gym. I have to drive home to get to the gym, and I always mange to convince myself that I'll just 'rest for a bit at home' and then come back. 
5. I'm going to bring in green tea bags to have something to sip on besides water.
6. OFFICES ARE VERY BORING PLACES.

Tomorrow I'm going to have to use my lunch break to workout because I have to dash somewhere after work. I plan on doing a quick-but-vigorous 45 minute workout (30 minutes treadmill, 15 elliptical). Hopefully I can put myself back together enough to last the rest of the day. I don't wanna look a mess my second week at work!

Losertown

A while ago on Tumblr, I found this site. It's called Losertown, and it's a great weight loss calculator that I use to keep myself motivated.

After plugging in all the above information, the site tells you exactly how much you'll weigh if you follow everything correctly. I haven't really kept track of its accuracy, but I use it as more of a motivator than anything else.

I just get super excited to think about myself weighing less and less. It's crazy to think that if I keep this up for a year, I could be around 139 lbs. I haven't seen that number on the scale in a very, very, very long time!

Just for shits and giggles I'm going to post my predicted calendar on here, and as the weeks pass, I'm going to see if this actually works. But keep in mind that I go over or under my 1300 calorie goal a lot, so it's probably not going to be accurate, but I've always wanted to try it just because

The idea that I could be 188 by my birthday is all the motivation that I need. I am not celebrating my birthday in a fat suit again.

June is halfway O V E R

Can you guys believe it? June is almost halfway over! There are 6 official days until summer!

I for one, have definitely lost track of some of the goals that I set for myself this month, so I wanted to bring them back up and into action.

Goal #1: Run 3-5 times a week

Goal #2: Eat on track (1,300) calories

Goal #3: Cut out added sugars

Goal #4: 3-4 cups of green tea/day

Goal #5: Read two classics

Goal #6: Update blog regularly

Goal #7: Stop lamenting myself.


Ultimate Goal: Lose 10 lbs and be 235.7


Well, with about 15 days left in the month, I know that I'm not going to lose ten pounds by June 30th. I lost a week of clean eating and working out and set myself back, but it is okay. I am seeing a lot of progress and this journey is more about improving myself than anything else.

So far, I've definitely accomplished Goal #1 the most. I have started running more often and with more frequency and am definitely enjoying it a lot more than I once used to. I still am getting the hang of it, but I am at least trying to run.

On the other hand, goal number 2, 3 and 4 are the ones that I am accomplishing with the LEAST amount of frequency. I am going to cup with a solution for this, because cutting out added sugars, eating properly, and drinking more green tea are something that I've been trying to do for a while now.

I have worked on Goal #7 though. While, I'm not going to lie and say that there haven't been days (or a succession of days) where I've been unhappy with myself, I have started looking towards the positive more often than I did before. That's what matters, right?


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So, with 16 days left in the month, I am going to re-start and re-check my goals. I'm going to cup with a list of solutions to help me 'solve' my goals.

Goal #1: Run 3-5 times a week.
    - with work starting, I have been going to the gym far less regularly. I am either going to start packing my gym clothes with me and just going straight from work or keeping the clothes on the first floor of my house and going right to the basement and running.

Goal #2: Eat on track (1,300) calories
   -This is something that has been a continuous challenge for me. On Sunday, I am going to try 'meal prepping' and only eating (for the entire week) what I prepare. I have to focus, and tell myself repeatedly that it's mind over matter with this one.

Goal #3: Cut out added sugars
  - No plan for this one yet. I may have to put it on the back burner, to be honest.

Goal #4: 3-4 cups of green tea/day

  - I am going to brew a jug of green tea that I keep in the fridge so I can drink it when I want.


I'm not going to be able to perfectly implement all 7 of my goals, but I'll be doing better than when I started if I keep it up with these 4.

It's crazy to think how time FLIES by.

The official countdown to the start of school is: 73 days!

Ride For A Reason

Last Sunday, I accomplished something that I didn't think I'd be able to do. I rode 22 miles for a bike race. It was gruesome, tiring, challenging and hellacious, but I did it.

Last Sunday, I also ate a lot. That race burned around 1,600 calories for me and I definitely needed some energy back. I ended up throwing caution in the wind, and consuming MANY, MANY, MANY, calories that day.

I thought it would be a one time thing, but it wasn't. I felt a familiar feeling creep back into my life - the idea that my stomach was an eternal black hole and nothing could fill it. After the race, I went to Panera and filled up on Black Bean Soup and a Tomato and Mozzarella Panini (well, well worth it). I enjoyed every last bite of that creamy yet tangy sandwich, and if I try really hard I can still taste the kick of the Black Bean Soup. That meal was gratifying. After that race, that meal really gave me the energy that a banana and a couple Chewy bars couldn't really replenish.

Another thing happened on Sunday as well. I crumbled. I lost control, and worst of all, I lost my mindset. I lost the ability and the reasoning that would tell my brain to put down the cookie and step away from the cheese. I lost the motivation to keep fighting my wants. I gave in. I knew I shouldn't have done it, but I did.

I remember the exact moment it happened, too. I went downstairs and there was an opened packet of Oatmeal Raisin cookies sitting on the counter. You have to remember, I love, like seriously LOVE, baked goods. I saw the last three cookies sitting on the counter and something snapped. I told myself what the hell, you can have it. Just sit down, pour yourself a glass of milk and have the cookies.

So I did. Then I ate an apple cinnamon muffin, and some basil pesto pasta for dinner.

...I haven't stopped since.

But this week, I realized something valuable. I realized that half the stuff I was eating, I didn't even want to be eating.

 

 I was the cake, and my brain was Mrs. Trunchbull, making me eat cake that I didn't even want to be eating. I was forcing myself into eating something that I knew wasn't beneficial for me at all.

 

I'd like to return to my previous eating habits, because I might have gotten bored with them in the moment, but I know that in the long run what I was doing was so much better for me.

 

I have to weigh myself tomorrow, and the fact that the scale isn't going to be in my favor is enough to make me regret every single thing that I've eaten in this past week. Last week I hit a personal low for me, and it was incredibly stupid of me to give up seeing an even lower number on the scale, just for food.

 

I have to do it, though. I have to see the number and see how poor actions cause poor results.

 

I'm not writing this as a depressing thing, but because I know that I have to be mentally ready to work hard again because I've set myself backward. 

 

 

Healthy Fats vs. Bad Fats

Yesterday, my family made me go to the grocery store to get desert after dinner. I had about three different requests from 6 different people, and not one of them were healthy!

My mom requested a cheesecake, my sister a low calorie alternative, and my dad requested his trusty Pineapple Coconut Frozen Yogurt. Even with all these options, I still knew that nothing would fill me up and lessen my urge to want to eat the cheesecake (I really can't afford 27g of fat from one tiny piece).

I made the decision to buy some new peanut butter and chocolate chips and create a cookie dough oatmeal. It was FANTASTIC and I thoroughly enjoyed it -- probably enough to have it for breakfast this morning.

But while I was eating my peanut butter, my sister told me that PB had too many calories and fat and was not good for me at all. WRONG!!

There is a big, big difference between all types of fat.  

We need fatty acids and healthy fats in our diet to keep us going! I found this great article that really explains all the basic information that you need to know regarding fats, healthy fats, and what type of fats to avoid here 

Types of good fats:

1. Monounsaturated: found in nuts, nut oils, avocado, olives, etc. 
2. Polyunsaturated: found in fish (salmon is a good one), seeds and nuts, etc. 

Types of BAD fats:

1. Saturated: found in high fat cuts of meat such as chicken with the skin on, beef, pork etc. 
2. Trans: commercial and manufactured foods.  

  Therefore, on the REAL scale, my peanut butter is in the GOOD fat area of monounsaturated and cheesecake is probably in the trans fat scale. 

Oh, how I wish emoji's could be used everywhere!

H20

We've all heard about the tremendous health benefits that water has. It's been preached to us throughout our whole lives, starting from kindergarten.

The human body has a dire need for this substance. We can go up to 7 days without eating and still live, but can perish in mere hours if the climate is hot enough and we don't have water.

Knowing this, it's fascinating how many times a day we reach for other substances to quench our 'thirst', when all we really need is a glass of water. Soda, juice, lemonade, iced tea, etc. are all common place in my house. When someone gets thirsty, no one reaches for water, but instead will go for anything else they can find.

It's been about 3 months since I've given up soda and I've never looked back. It's actually been one of the most liberating things that I've done in a while. I've noticed several benefits, and I also am no longer putting any of those harsh chemicals into my body.

It wasn't hard at all actually, I just simply stopped. I didn't have to wean myself off the drink, or get any weird cravings, I simply reached for water.

When I told my family, they were all shocked. During our weekly grocery store trips, we used to buy six bottles of Coke Zero, two cases of Sprite cans, and three  orange juice gallons. I think that's roughly $20 a week on drinks!!

In a year we spend ONE THOUSAND FORTY DOLLARS ON VARIOUS LIQUIDS.

It's not only healthier to drink water, but it's just cheaper! I wish we'd have taken those $1,040 and went on a vacation to the beach for a week!

There's many different reasons to stop drinking other liquids with added sugars and chemicals, but until you find one that hits you in the gut, no matter what anyone says, you're not going to quit.

But, in the meantime, there are various ways to spice up your water to make it taste better!

Studies show that a glass of warm or hot (or any) lemon water in the morning before your first meal aids your digestive system and cleans your liver.

Lemon, mint leaves, cucumbers, and even orange slices are some of my favorite things to add to my water to keep it from getting boring!

And sparkling water is the perfect alternative for those people who enjoy the bubbly taste of soda. Add some fruit to that, and you've got a great refreshing drink!!

Motivational Monday

I know that I've been wishy-washy and off track lately, but now that it's June 3rd and the weekend is over, it is time to BUCKLE DOWN.

There are 81 days between now and when summer ends, and it's time to get serious. I know I say that a lot, but I am trying to keep repeating it so that the idea is ingrained in my head.

I'm going to do a Motivational Monday along with Meal Prep Monday (I might have a thing for alliteration). It gets so hard for me to be motivated after a bit of clean eating + exercising because I feel like I'm not getting results in proportion with how hard I am working.

I know that's not true, but it's so hard to keep it in perspective sometimes! This is a pin I found on Pinterest that keeps me going and reminds me why I'm doing what I'm doing. 

Ever since I can remember, I've been wearing tankinis with shorts or a full size bathing suit to the beach.
Never have I ever worn a bikini. One of my many life goals is to finally be able to put on that glorification of a bra and panties and parade around with all the self confidence in the world. I've been dreaming of the day that it'll happen and now that I'm finally taking a step towards my goals, I know that day is coming closer and closer.

Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani

Today's post is going to be much more of a personal one, as opposed to a fitness oriented post.


After heading to the temple in the morning, and a great lunch with the whole family after, my family and I went to go see the new movie Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani. I thought it was a super fun movie, and the songs were even better.

Plus, my future husband Ranbir Kapoor was lookin' fine as always ;)

I have an affinity for Bollywood movies that runs through my blood and will never leave me. When I was little, I used to want to be a Bollywood actor so badly. I used to have magazine cut outs of my favorite celebrities and used to hoard magazines.

I always have a couple songs from each movie that really stand out to me, and are stuck in my head for days after. Well, I definitely found mine for this movie!

 

I just love Deepika Padukone! I think she is so pretty, poised, and is definitely my fitspriation. Her legs are so toned and I  just love the way she rocks her curves in a sari. She's perfect, and I would love to have a body like hers.

June is HERE!

June is upon us, and summer officially starts in 20 days!


Because I am a huge believer in goal lists, to-do lists (any type of list really), I've made a June Goal List that I'm going to share with everyone!

I wanted to make this list with both fitness and personal goals because I am trying to make my fitness a more consistent type of routine that fits into my daily schedule.

With May behind us, I am proud to say that I have lost EIGHT POUNDS. 

It is definitely an accomplishment, and I hope to continue to push myself and I want to try to lose 10 lbs by the end of June. If I stick to a stricter schedule, I definitely think that this will be possible. 

I also want to maintain a more positive body image, because I think that it is important for me to stop crtiscizing myself and to understand that I have come a long way from where I was. My clothing is fitting better, I am feeling better, and with more consistency and hard work I know that it'll all be possible! 


Cutting out added sugars is something that will be hard, but beneficial for me in the long run. I want to stop using any sweeteners (besides Truvia and organic agave syrup). I want to limit my intake of those too, however.  Just because they're organic, it doesn't mean they're super healthy for you.


Here's to a happy, healthy, and enjoyable summer!

 

We have 20 days to look our best!